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spiderman in the night
i talk like 24/7
everyday is my birthday
ilovemymessyhair
and i still miss my braces. VERYVERYMUCH :c
bomberman <3 <3
FISH
i love adorable the most (:
I am going to write in this blog more frequently.
Ever since i stop writing i have no more followers/can't seem to spell
AND STILL HAVE BAD FRAGMENTS AND SENTENCE STRUCTURE.
boohoo!
actually.
MY LIFE IS PRETTY GOOD IN LA.
Here are some highlights.
1. Met the creator of L word.
2. Met the producer of Amazing race.
3. Been at the produced by conference.
4. Able to drive comfortably in Los Angeles.
5. Biking down 20+ miles from Venice to Hollywood.
6. Experience and stayed by the beach for 10 days.
7. Staying in a great apartment, with a pool and gym.
8. Only 18 days but I've been to Burbank, Pasendena, Glendale, Hollywood, Westhollywood, Westwood, Culver City, Venice
9. Made Christina and Laura at the produced by conference who is going to hang out with me.
10. Went out with the cute bike boy from Venice.
11. Went to GAYPRIDE and dance and dance like mad with RONA! (I wonder what will people think when they see the two of us)
12. Secured 2 internships.
13. Got to go out with Dennis from HERE! (TV NETWORK) Great guy who is willing to teach me everything.
14. Rona - the person who takes really really really good care of me
15. Meeting Shoes to get my present from ANGELINE!!
16. Did shopping - bought 2 pair of shoes/2 pants/ 1 running shoes/ 3 shirts
17. Lost 2kg since I've arrived
I should count my blessing.
I am happy to be here! :):)
Going to upload pictures.
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10 things.
1. Left hand driving and cars are so damn cheap.
2. Nobody really visits fastfood like KFC/Burgerking
3. Nobody really likes Walmart (but i am curious to go)
4. No chilli sauce, only hot sauce
5. Food comes in huge huge portion. (if you cannot finish you can tabao)
6. Not many shopping malls like sg.
7. Even if there were clothes, none would really fit me and their designs are very floral kind. (I've to go to the kids section btw)
8. You can turn right even though its red (as long as no traffic)
9. Everyone is shocked that Singaporeans speak english
10. Tipping is 15-20%
since i've stopped blogging i don't know where to start now.
life's been good to me.
im learning how to save.
and im thinking about doing an internship in LA
till then.
ANYW CHECK THIS OUT
ITS REALLY GOOD
(COS I SHOT IT HEHEHE)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xqRF9wqHSC8
i didnt sleep last night
stayed overnight in school to work on my scriptment.
ohyah ive been to toilet like 5 times.
something wrong w my bowel.
either im too excited while writing my scriptment or i'm too nervous.
i think its nervous because my heart usually pounds damn hard.
porky is sleeping so soundly now.
i want to take a quick nap but all this thinking is.........not making me relax.
but i am not.
11 days to school break also means 11 more days to finish my senior project.
people took 15 weeks to edit and finalize their project
how am i gonna do smthg good in 2 weeks.
okay i know i can if i want.
but right now.
i am feeling unmotivated.
BIG BIG TIME.
i am depressed.
i wanna leave SG now.
ps: even captain planet cannot help me.
i hope this 2 weeks past quickly
i wanna leave on the last day of exam.
that will be cool.
anywhere is fine.
HWK LIST.
finance research paper
finance research presentation
snr project treatment
snr project onesheet
snr project marketingplan
WWYD final cut
rights and contract hwk
ON AN EXTRA NOTE.
i think i have such a sad life.
one day before a major deadline is due, my lecturer said my story is too ambitious and would like me to redo.
well this is ontop of me having 10 pages of scriptment as well as a consultation w him.
well.
i don't blame him.
i didn't like my story anyway.
yawn
i wasted so much fuckg time.
despite her petite figure, she is everything but fragile.
standing at barely 1.55m, she's a woman with a strong character.
whom gave up her well paid job to look after the kids.
whom sent me to tuition classes, swimming, tennis, ballet, piano, computer without fail.
who waiting for us by the pool side without fear for the 2 hours we had swimming classes just to make sure we're safe.
on top of the fact that we have a life guard on standby.
you see.
my family, (dad) has a condition and most of his family members are suffering from it.
and because of this, my mum's always keeping a look out for us.
she's afraid that we've seizures.
she gave me what i wanted.
and when we're all finally older, she decide to pursue her studies.
from getting a certificate, to getting a degree to a masters.
and so she's juggling both work and studies.
you see.
mum's never tired of learning.
she don't just learn, she learns well.
she doesn't discriminate anybody.
for all i know, she's a great influence to ALL, almost controlling in a good way.
she lends her help when most needed.
at work.
she's one who doesn't slack.
one who will stand up against injustice.
so focus, so determined, so hardworking.
she aims to do her best at every single thing and thats why we seldom get to see her as we grow older.
when i complain that she doesn't watch any of my football matches.
she surprises me by turning up for one, cheering me on.
when i say i miss her cooking
she surprises me by wipping out a dishes
at home.
she's the nagging mother whom never fails to get up EARLY every morning to make us breakfast.
for my dad, she prepared him oats and milk
for my sis, she prepared bread w cabbage and ham.
for my brother, i don't think he eats in the morning.
for me, the simple action of pouring cereal into my plastic bag/lunch box.
every sat will be barley water for us as she reminds us to bring a bottle out.
or cut fruits in which she nicely puts it in plastic bag for our convenience.
she takes special notice of every single food i like or dislike.
if she cooks a dish i dislike, she'll make it up with one specially for me.
that's mum.
the REAL superwoman.
today
mum went through a small operation to take out the screws in her back.
it was causing her pain. (she had the screw 2 years back)
she seemed really unwell and......tired.
but i know that she'll bounce back fine and tougher then before.
i think my blog entries pretty sum up who am i.
its funny.
do pitches usually have to be so formal and so boring?
i know ideas are not but im saying the way pitches go ... ARE.
we should have done smthg outta the norm.
i think that's what i've taken out of today.
and me, my voice, my loud voice.
they are nothing if i've not used it properly.
ever had that feeling whereby you are at the top of the world?
i don't mean it literally.
i mean it like for example while i was in HONGKONG i took that ride at ocean park with the girls.
we were literally there for a full 10 seconds because plunging down.
or ever had that feeling whereby you're in need of money
and you just found 30 bucks stash up somewhere which you previously left and totally forgotten about it.
or that feeling of love.
whereby the girl you like or have a crush on finally takes notice on you?
that feeling?
this feeling is exactly how i feel right now -when i've an idea.
an explosion of ideas that keep my heart pumping really hard.
that makes me excited.
the story.
it is not good.
it is far from good i know.
but.
it is getting there.
:):):):)
it's always the process. :)
well.
we were suppose to have a final story pitch and this pitch will determined if we made it or not. (if we made it we can pitch to the singapore film commission)
and so today we pitched
and for a while each of us sat there, talking about politics and the world and finally andy broke to us.
andy: you're in. you can pitch on monday.. but don't disappoint me!
YEAH YEAH YEAH.
i am so happy i think i could have screamed. okay jump for joy.
okay the second thing.
so when i head to my car (been driving to school pretty much this two weeks) i got a shocked of my life
my wheel was clammed and to release it i needed to pay a hundred dollar fine.
omg omggggggg.
that's like omg rightttt seriously.
even if you dont put coupon only fine 30 bucks now its like a 100 bucks thing.
and then you know what keep coming into my mind?
indra's word.
indra's my classmate who drives to school everyday.
so a couple of days back i asked him
g: so indra, dont you ever get fined?
i: nope
g: but you drive to school everyday. what are the chances of you getting the green coupon. out of ten times?
i: 10 times.
THE GREEN COUPON IS A WARNING LETTER BTW. np issue that out to you when you park in their red lots.
so when you hear someone who drives to school so frequently and don't ever get fine, ofcourse you listen to them right?
I DID.
AND I STILL GOT THE MY WHEEL CLAMMED.
so i head down to the estate management office to speak my case.
this nice malay dude was explaining very nicely about the case and that once they had my wheel clammed i HAD to pay the fine.
once clammed = must pay.
but ofcos to me, there's no such logic. there's always a way out.
so i politely asked to speak to another person with a higher authority.
this lady i forgot her name.
here hows it went or roughly.
g: hi. (shake her hand) my name is regina and i am currently studying in chapman university. well, my wheel was clammed and i just wanna say that its my bad. the whole thing was my fault. i parked 3 consequetive days. but what i wanna say is. i had the car for 3 days since my dad's sick and i didnt find it reasonable to pay 80 bucks for a semester parking.
lady continues to listen
g: so i know i am wrong so i did put HDB parking coupons to show that i really needed the space (ofcos this was a..white lie)
lady chuckles. malay guy also chuckles. porky who was with me told me she wanted to lie when i said that because that doesn't prove anything. but it really does.
WHY?
the last time i didnt have night coupon i place day coupons as a replacement i got away.
so there's the logic behind.
put better then dont put.
put fine 6 bucks, dont put fine 30. get it?
so anyw she went on and on about how i was warned w all the green slips and how it was highlighted in red.
BTW i am such an ass. those green slips, i left it on my windscreen even after i drove out of school. HEHE
so back to the topic.
throughout i was sincere in my apologies and when i told her i only drove consequtively for 3 days. she didn't believe and even called my dad to check. and you know, i don't lie except for the white lie and so it was proven that i really drove my dad's car and not some other car.
so now she trust me.
after getting her to trust me.
once again i apologize and share w her one secret about Indra.
HEHE because she said 2 times and my wheel will be clammed and i ask her why my friend park until now never got clammed.
ofcourse i didnt reveal indra's name or where he parked. HEHHEHE.
so right now she knows im sincere and just an ignorant kid.
i end of saying..
i know this is an impossible task of waiving off the fine. but i assure you, i will never parked at np red lots again know the consequences.
and i flash her my ...smile.
she asked me to give her a minute. in which i ofcourse.
during that minute me and porky were debating about......the results.
and you know what.
THE NICE LADY WAIVE OFF MY FEES.
a hundred bucks okay.
i could have been a hundred bucks poorer if not for my mouth :)
ahhhhhhhh
today's really a fine day.
i see my classmates shooting off their stories without much thought.
their 3 act structure, the conflict, the suspense, the turning point, the lowest point.
and me
i am struggling.
my second act has always this risk of becoming too thin.
people start with a logline. the character. the struggle.
me?
THE THEME.
THE DAMN THEME.
and it has become such a habit...its hard to change. or rather. i still don't see a need t change.
i think of epic stories when actually all i wanted to do is DRAMA.
drama dont sell.
american beauty did.
how about that?
i'm not saying mine is like american beauty but if that drama sells,
drama has an audience afterall.
okay fantasy drama, thriller drama, action drama.
sigh.
i am going further with my epic scifi story but yet a part of me...doesnt like what i am writing.
this project is suppose to be viable.
its suppose to be a live project.
and my film now.
its a 35 million dollar film as quoted by joanna.
how is it possible.
screw senior project.
i wish i'm still a junior.
:):)
oldies that were long forgotten.
here's one for you.
that's 823 days of loving you. (if every month has 31 days)
i wouldn't stop.
cause you're the best and the cutest and the most funny looking (the chin)
TEEHEEHEE
maybe i should elaborate.
you know sometimes you feel sad and disappointed but yet there are no real reasons.
just like the time when my group lost my digi cam and i asked them all t pay since its fair and square?
and then thank god i got the camera back but didn't tell any of my members and my brother say i should test my friends' reaction to me asking them to pay?
yes its that feeling.
i was afraid to ask.
i was afraid of being let down.
its like you asked who is willing to die for you and your friends always say they are.
but one day what if some asshole really points a gun at their face and will their answer still be the same?
in times of hardships will people change their answer and to what degree?
okay maybe the gun thing is not such a good analogy.
i think i'm hurt.
but i don't think anybody knows why.
i don't intend t say anyway.
when i don't talk about it i think i'll forget about it which makes it even better.
am i too sensitive?
yes.
but am i upset?
yes too.
whatever it is.
i guess nobody knows but the person.
only the other party will know what's the real answer for them.
this blog is depressive because i stopped blogging all the happy stuff.
there are happy stuff too just that i've found another outlet.
so for now.
depress shit.
why is the work never ever ending?
tell me why.
why why why why.
why do we have to do so many things.
why am i lagging behind.
fuck
i hate to be behind.
why can't i think.
okay i am not angsty.
i am just wondering WHY.
only you can manage to make me feel better.
this is really inspirational.
Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)
I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.
"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."
This is to all the parents out there...
you can make mistakes.
but you have to learn from them.
human beings are funny creatures.
i for example, am a funny creature.
i think i am weird.
especially how my mind works.
why do i get angry easily towards the person i like?
shouldn't it be the other way.
so dumb.
but i am the dumb one for not thinking it through before losing my temper.
what is this script to me- nothing YET
what is snr project to me - nothing to me YET
what are you? EVERYTHING
i shouldn't vent my anger, irritation, frustration to anyone just because i am feeling down.
sorry.
i will change
for the better.
why do I feel so sad?